Wednesday, January 21, 2015
Filling My Heart With Everything, But HIM
I mentioned in Mondays outfit post, that last week was a week bursting with energy. It was not just physical energy that was flowing freely in me, it was mental energy. I felt a “reviving” of sorts. And I can only attribute that revival to one thing: getting back into GOD’s word.
Last year was not my best year for spiritual growth. I slacked SEVERELY in personal devotions. And prayer? It happened primarily when something was going wrong.
I look back and see, that my not being in constant communion with my LORD, came from the fact that life was, and is going so well.
I’m married to the man of my dreams. We have a beautiful house. I’m relatively healthy. And there are no major family issues to speak of.
Toward the end of last year, I began to notice a change in me. And it was not a good one.
I was feeling depressed most days, and let down at everything.
I looked back at pre-marriage blog posts and saw in my words joy and peace. A peace I wondered where in the world went!
And I began to remember. Before I was married, or further back to before Justin and I were even courting, life was pretty difficult most days.
I did not have any close friends, and I struggled with loneliness.
GOD used those times to teach me one important lesson. That ONLY HE can fulfil your deepest heart’s desires. Not people, not money, or stability in life.
I had to come to a point in my life where HE was my all. That no matter what is going on my life, ONLY HIS love, and grace is what brings true joy to our lives.
So, I lived a joyful life as a single woman. Then as a young woman in a courtship, and finally as a new bride.
I always told myself that I would not put Justin, or anything else in my new life, before my relationship with GOD. And I believed that thought.
But somewhere along the way, that changed.
It wasn’t something I noticed right off. I think it crept in slowly.
Not doing a daily devotional. Not reading encouraging blogs, or articles. And simply not talking daily with HIM. My defenses were weakened, and my flesh began to control me.
At the end of last year, I set a goal. I said I was going to get back in GOD’s word on a daily basis.
And so I have.
And I am beginning to feel that joy and peace, that I thought I lost, return.
GOD is so good!
I fail HIM every day. But HIS mercies and grace, they are unfailing.
Ladies, try not to be like me in your early days of marriage (or any stage of life). And think that while life is going great, you can let your defenses down.
Stay in GOD’s word! Fight to be in it daily! Talk with HIM EVERY chance you get! It will make you all the more stronger for when the tough times roll in.
I cannot say it enough. ONLY the GOD of this universe can meet your every need. People will fail you. But HE will not. HE is always there for us, no matter where we are at in our lives. :)
Have a wonderfully blessed day everyone! Thanks for stopping by!