|Justin's Sweet Niece|
It has not been too busy a day. I have the house cleaned up, a weight lifting session done, and a list wrote out of all the things that need to be accomplished in the coming days.
Life has been very different of late. I look back to the days of last November, and they have changed so much from these current days. This time last year I was dreaming of holding a little "Justin" on Thanksgiving.
Never in my wildest dreams did I think I would be recovering from cancer, and facing the fact I may never be able to have children of my own.
I have not been told children are an impossibility. The odds are more stacked against me now though. And if we do try and become pregnant, it won't be for a very long time. ( not until any lingering chemo is gone from my body)
Most days, I do not even give it a second thought. And I truly feel so blessed to just be alive, and as healthy as I am!
And there are some days, I am brought to tears at the thought of never being able to be a mommy.
I guess those times happen more often when I see a baby at church, see a mother chasing after her child, or am surrounded by pregnant ladies at Whole Foods (weird, but it happens quite a bit there...).
Once again it has been a lesson in contentment, and desiring and seeking out what GOD has in store for me this very moment.
You think I would have learned that lesson by now...
I believe the LORD is using this time, to teach me to seek out ways to encourage others. In particularly those who are sick.
I also believe GOD allowed cancer in my life to show me another world. The world of those who are sick and going through trials. A world of people that need encouragement, and someone to reach out and say "I care, because I know how it feels".
I never would have known this world had I become a mother last November.
Becoming a mother may not be GOD's plan for me. I cannot know that for certain right now.
I do know for certain that GOD does have a plan for these mostly quiet days. And my job is to seek it out, and follow it with a joyful, thankful attitude. :)
What is the LORD teaching you these early November days?
Have a wonderfully blessed day! Thanks for stopping by!
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